Putting the damage on

[fredericks]

Mom and dad are having another row downstairs. The man REALLY needs to go back to work. When he does nothing and he's working, he's only home doing nothing for, like, 5 hours out of the day. Now he stays in his robe all day, it seems, and just is a useless sack of human. I cannot cannot cannot stand this man. He called mom while we were on the way to the mall yesterday night and told her someone peed all over the toilet seat. Re-read that sentence for me, will you? The FUCK is my mother supposed to do about that while she's in the car on the way to Roosevelt Field? The fuck is ANYONE supposed to do about that? He just likes to run his mouth for no real reason, and he talks to my mother the same way he talks to us, his children. Which rankles the hell out of me. He talks to everyone like he's more intelligent than them (*snort*), but at least show your wife some respect, you know? Knowing there are men out there like my father, men that want to be waited on, men that feel superior to their supposed "life partner", it makes me afraid to enter relationships. The man will see something is wrong, and instead of trying to correct said problem he'll rant and rave about it and blame everyone else.

I'm moving on from that now. Because I'll sit here typing all day.

Yesterday - first tax day. I did a return. Rather simple one, but it took me 45 minutes because I had to wait for the senior tax person (the incompetent person) to clarify some little detail about NYS and pension exemptions. The guy whose taxes I was working on was extremely patient, and I was grateful for that. Very much so. Helped my nerves.

I was frustrated by a number of things yesterday. At one point I started crying. I think it was a combination of nerves and my menstrual cycle. Or just nerves.

I'm back at Ballys thanks to the two month free trial from the Body Challenge. Bastards tried to kick me in the self esteem and guilt me into joining them. Ha ha, joke's on them - I have NO self-esteem [left]. I felt like pulling out my Almond Joy bar and eating it in that pushy woman's face. Didn't, though.

I'm addicted to Starbuck's new drink, Chantico. It's basically a heart attack in a little cup. Like they took a chocolate bar, melted it, and put it in a cup. Sinfully delicious.


Stolen from devoosha

1) First Grade Teacher: Can't remember
2) Last words you said: "Oh my God!"
3) Last song you sang: "Karma" by Alicia Keys
4) Last person you hugged: My mom
5) Last thing you laughed at: Some vaguely threatening-looking guy wielding a power drill and scotch tape we saw on our way to Starbucks
6) Last time you said 'I love you': This afternoon
7) Last time you cried: Yesterday
8) What's in your CD MD player: A mix of Radiohead's Hail to the Thief, a number of songs culled from QAF, my CD "Sleep Mix", and a couple of other dance-y songs.
9) What color socks are you wearing: White
10) What's under your bed: A couple of library books
11) What time did you wake up today: 9:30 AM
12) Current taste: Chantico
13) Current hair: Under a woolly hat
14) Current clothes: Jeans and a grey t-shirt
16) Current longing: A car
17) Current desktop picture: An open-exposure of a rocket heading off into atmo. Beautiful.
18) Current worry: Getting into nursing school
19) Current hate: Lack of money
20) Story behind your LJ username: "Fredericks" is Sam Fredericks, a character from one of my favorite fantasy series, Otherland, by Tad Williams. We have a lot in common, I think.
21) Current favourite article of clothing: A scarf. Any woolen scarf. Particularly the one my cousin knit for me for Christmas
22) Favourite physical feature of the opposite/same sex: I'd have to say a nice smile.
23) Last CD that you bought: Kill Bill, vol. 2 soundtrack
24) Favourite place to be: Anywhere in the heart of the city
25) Least favourite place: Anyplace that makes me unhappy
26) Time you wake up in the morning: Around 9
27) If you could play an instrument, what would it be: I play the clarinet and recorder, and I wish I could play them better. If I had the means I'd pick up the viola.
28) Favourite color: Green
29) Do you believe in an afterlife: Unsure
30) How tall are you: 5'6"
31) Current favourite word/saying: Gosh!
32) Favourite book: I'd say Sea of Silver Light, book 3 of the Otherland series
33) Favourite season: Fall
34) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: No one.
35) Favourite day: Saturday
36) Where do you want to go: Italy. Venice for Carnivale. Hawai'i a close second.
37) What is your career going to be like: Fruitful. Challenging. Meaningful.
39) What kind of car will you have: Unsure.
40) Type a line you remember from any book: "Scanmaster."
41) A random lyric: "Look; I stand here naked before you/ Don't you want more than my sex?"
42) Identify some things surrounding your computer: Lotion, a cup of water, Tad Williams' War of the Flowers, a bottle of perfume, my wallet, a bottle of nearly empty hair oil, a broken TV remote, my clock radio, my cell phone, a couple of losing lottery tickets, a broken stapler, a bottle cap...
43) Who do you love: Those who love me. And some of those who don't.