Late night ramblings

[fredericks]

It's late and I'm slightly out-of-sorts. I think it might have something to do with the Szechuan-spiced vegetables I rustled up for dinner that are currently working their way through my insides, leaving pain destruction and burning (oh, the burning!) in their wake. Le joy.

Krishna officially has cancer, some weird melanoma osteosarcoma of the skull that the doctor blurted out I still am unsure about. We're going in tomorrow to get her stitches out and to hear the final word. The doc suggested taking her to a specialty hospital in Manhattan or out on the Island, and I just don't have the money for it. I basically paid for the biopsy on money I'm hoping I come into; I can't imagine how much whatever procedures the clinics would have in mind might cost. It would seem both Krishna's grandmother and mother died of cancer, so a part of me thinks it's futile to attempt some experimental treatment anyway. Not really sure what to think about that yet.

I should be sleeping, but I'm acting the fool, washing towels and reading Television Without Pity pages. I'm debating whether I should go to sleep (we'd have to leave to head to the vet by 8:30) or stay up and watch Hoop Dreams. Choices choices.