Owwie

I sucked it up and got my ass to my internist's office this morning, mainly because the periodic aches, chills, and sinus symptoms weren't being controlled by liberal dosing of Tylenol Sinus. I didn't get the cool PA but the elusive doc himself, and he spent a minute tops asking me questions and looking down my throat and up my nostrils before saying I'm suffering with allergies. Which, JESUS, I knew he was going to say and so I don't know why I ended up spending the time and $20 co-pay for the visit anyway. He was going to write me scripts for Zyrtec (btw, I totally called this a couple of weeks ago) and a pain med for my occasional neck soreness (he says I might have strained a muscle...no, I did not), but I declined both. Now I'm going to try OTC Claritin and see if it improves on the Tylenol. Something needs to happen, because my eyes and face were burning today while I was outside. Not fun at all. And do allergies explain the occasional sore throat and the lump on the side of my neck? Blah blah sick cakes

Apropos of nothing, I think a lot of my problems (except the ones listed in the previous paragraph, obviously) would be remedied if I somehow got an infusion of confidence. I'm always questioning my worth and my abilities (I've spent a good portion of today fretting about what I may or may not have done at work on Friday) and lack of self-esteem is such a tough hurdle to have to continuously jump that I think I've all but given up at this point. Related note - no, I have yet to call one of the numerous SWs or Psychologists that are covered under my insurance in order to schedule counseling. But I look at the list of names just about every other day.