::cues The Cure::
Jun. 25th, 2007 02:44 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fredericksGah. It's difficult to post this without feeling an instant swelling of unnecessary self-importance, but whateverthehell. I've been reading LJ but I haven't felt much like posting and/or responding lately. For the best, I'm sure, as most of my posts would be rants about LI's shoddy public transportation, the black hole that is my love life, and my hatred of the USPS, and my comments to posts would prolly read "eat more fiber!" You think I kid but oh, oh no.
When I look at my life I get a sense of stagnation and that's no good, but overall things aren't too hideous. I'm just in one of those funks I tend to get into. I figure it's either an all-out withdrawal or start climbing clocktowers. At this moment I wonder whether it's more important to pay my bills or to strike off on my own. Being at home has its comforts, but would I experience more growth if I lived in my own apartment? I could say I'm staying here more or less rent-free (I do give the mom-dukes a sum of money every month, but that was my own decision and if I'm late with it on the occasion the enforcers aren't let loose) to pay my loans and save money for a house, but while I've been aggressively paying my notes the saving hasn't been going too well. Perhaps it would be *better* for me to move out and take the full ten years to pay off my loans. Maybe it would give me the opportunity to branch out socially and experience things I've been avoiding all these years. Or it'll allow me to crash and burn while still giving me a place to return so I can lick my wounds. I dunno.
In summary: I'm here, I'm reading my FL, I'm just emo at the moment.
When I look at my life I get a sense of stagnation and that's no good, but overall things aren't too hideous. I'm just in one of those funks I tend to get into. I figure it's either an all-out withdrawal or start climbing clocktowers. At this moment I wonder whether it's more important to pay my bills or to strike off on my own. Being at home has its comforts, but would I experience more growth if I lived in my own apartment? I could say I'm staying here more or less rent-free (I do give the mom-dukes a sum of money every month, but that was my own decision and if I'm late with it on the occasion the enforcers aren't let loose) to pay my loans and save money for a house, but while I've been aggressively paying my notes the saving hasn't been going too well. Perhaps it would be *better* for me to move out and take the full ten years to pay off my loans. Maybe it would give me the opportunity to branch out socially and experience things I've been avoiding all these years. Or it'll allow me to crash and burn while still giving me a place to return so I can lick my wounds. I dunno.
In summary: I'm here, I'm reading my FL, I'm just emo at the moment.
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Date: 2007-06-27 09:40 pm (UTC)