What are you doing New Years...
Dec. 31st, 2003 08:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fredericksAccording to our calendar it's almost 2004. Wow. 2004. Every year I look at the date and every year I'm amazed I'm still around. And growing older. Mom's in the kitchen cooking up the traditional dinner while I'm up here slouching around. Dad has this notion that we should all think of resolutions and share them with each other that has me dreading later tonight. Supposedly this is so we can all "support" each other in reaching those goals, but I know how it'll all work out. Hells, we all know, which is why we were all groaning about it yesterday. We'll think of a few resolutions that'll be half-hearted, we'll be prodded into sharing them, dad will deem them inadequate and then will *give* us resolutions that he thinks we should have which he will then proceed to nag us about well into the new year. Of course, he won't make any resolutions at all because he's bloody PERFECT.
I, in fact, do have some things I need to work on and I'll use this arbitrarily chosen day to start it. I fully intend to socialize more, be it volunteering or simply opting to go out with friends instead of staying in where I'm comfortable. I've also been meaning to re-learn Italian and Spanish. I'm sure there are a few things floating around in my head that'll shape themselves into something substantial in a few days.
Oh, right. So I was re-watching QAF-UK the other day and remembering why I loved it so much (and why I'm so disappointed in the US version) when I was struck (lightbulb moment, even) by a certain scene. Here, Vince is talking to his best friend/unrequited love interest Stuart about his current b-friend, and Stuart's response sums up Vince's thoughts about the matter and his self-esteem. I've boiled it down to this snippet:
And, no, that's not Stuart being an asshole. That's Stuart knowing Vince so well he can read his mind (and yes, I know these are fictional characters; so what?). Mind you, I've seen this series at least twice in its entirety already but for some reason I finally realized that, HEY!, that's exactly what I think/feel. Whenever someone expresses interest in me or whenever someone says the "l" word, I automatically think "no, they must be mistaken, they can't be who I thought they were if they like me". So it's safer to pine after those that don't have an interest in me, if that makes any sense at all.
Blah blah blah life sucks . My folks are getting sued by a former tenant of their apartment building. I can hear them bickering about it downstairs as I type this. Oh, it's not just their names on the lease, it's my uncle's as well. But they've had trouble with this venture from day one. They basically stopped dealing with the building six or seven years ago, leaving my uncle in charge. But they never wrote up any formal agreements for the deal, never formed a corporation, never looked into getting any protection if something happened. Frankly, from what I know of the suit there's little merit in it and it seems that any self-respecting judge would throw it out. BUT STILL...my stomach clenches up at the thought of what could happened because the suit is for a shitload of money. From the day I started my economics class I felt that any and all business ventures my family were into would be trouble because. Just because. Goddamn it.
The plan is to go by my aunts to ring in the New Years, but I really feel like just staying home under the covers. I'm scheduled to work tomorrow. I should have asked if I could have worked the Eve and gotten the day off but I didn't realize how much better that situation would have been. Oh well. Fun times at the Shack.
May the next Year be brighter than the last.
I, in fact, do have some things I need to work on and I'll use this arbitrarily chosen day to start it. I fully intend to socialize more, be it volunteering or simply opting to go out with friends instead of staying in where I'm comfortable. I've also been meaning to re-learn Italian and Spanish. I'm sure there are a few things floating around in my head that'll shape themselves into something substantial in a few days.
Oh, right. So I was re-watching QAF-UK the other day and remembering why I loved it so much (and why I'm so disappointed in the US version) when I was struck (lightbulb moment, even) by a certain scene. Here, Vince is talking to his best friend/unrequited love interest Stuart about his current b-friend, and Stuart's response sums up Vince's thoughts about the matter and his self-esteem. I've boiled it down to this snippet:
Vince:It pisses me off though, first one to say love. He's in charge, puts him in charge. I don't know, it's all a bit grown up...
You're supposed to ask if I love him -
Stuart:You can't, you can't even respect him. He loves Vince Tyler so that makes him stupid. The moment he said it, it all just died.
And, no, that's not Stuart being an asshole. That's Stuart knowing Vince so well he can read his mind (and yes, I know these are fictional characters; so what?). Mind you, I've seen this series at least twice in its entirety already but for some reason I finally realized that, HEY!, that's exactly what I think/feel. Whenever someone expresses interest in me or whenever someone says the "l" word, I automatically think "no, they must be mistaken, they can't be who I thought they were if they like me". So it's safer to pine after those that don't have an interest in me, if that makes any sense at all.
Blah blah blah life sucks . My folks are getting sued by a former tenant of their apartment building. I can hear them bickering about it downstairs as I type this. Oh, it's not just their names on the lease, it's my uncle's as well. But they've had trouble with this venture from day one. They basically stopped dealing with the building six or seven years ago, leaving my uncle in charge. But they never wrote up any formal agreements for the deal, never formed a corporation, never looked into getting any protection if something happened. Frankly, from what I know of the suit there's little merit in it and it seems that any self-respecting judge would throw it out. BUT STILL...my stomach clenches up at the thought of what could happened because the suit is for a shitload of money. From the day I started my economics class I felt that any and all business ventures my family were into would be trouble because. Just because. Goddamn it.
The plan is to go by my aunts to ring in the New Years, but I really feel like just staying home under the covers. I'm scheduled to work tomorrow. I should have asked if I could have worked the Eve and gotten the day off but I didn't realize how much better that situation would have been. Oh well. Fun times at the Shack.
May the next Year be brighter than the last.
