fredericks

Weirdest dream I can recall in a good long while. There was this largish spider that, for some reason, I had to chomp down on...even though I'm very much afraid of them (my brother once chased me around the house with one of those very realistic pictures from the "Nature" pamphlets they gave out in elementary. I ended up staying in the basement for a good ten minutes after he'd given up the fun, scared that he was around the corner, just waiting for me to re-emerge so he could terrorize me again.) All "Fear Factor" style, except without Joe Rogan. I kept trying to, I don't know, swallow it? but its legs prevented that from happening. As they were dangling outside of my mouth. It also had its fangs or something dug underneath my chin (I swore I felt all of this). I finally say "screw it" and pull it out of my mouth in two halves. Top is easy, bottom is stuck in my chin and so I sort of have to yank it. Go to a mirror and my face is torn up, like its venom was acidic. I'm, understandably, devastated (what, no more modeling career?!? ha, no), but when I start to wash my face said scar tissue and burns wash off like movie magic.

I suppose I should read a bit of Kinney in that dream, you know, take control of your fears and things won't turn out nearly as bad as you though, but I'm still captivated by my moxie.

Not going to try out for FF, though.