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I'm done. This has felt like the longest semester I've ever had to deal with. Being home has something to do with it. When I was up in Providence I inevitably had a single. I could retreat into my room with no distractions when the mental goings got rough. Hide behind Six Feet Under and Queer as Folk and The Sopranos and various online fandoms. Pick up a book and read from sun up to sun down, leaving my room only to grab a coffee if need be. Worked enough to support myself. I was as independent as a young girl paying an exorbitant amount to attend a private university and pay for dorming in a small room could conceivably think she could be. And now I'm home, finding it hard to find a job that'll allow me enough leeway to focus on my studies, dealing with various stressors (mom DAD), and barely containing my continuous freak out about not really knowing what the hell I'm going to do and, my ultimate nightmare, being stuck here forever.

But, yes. It's over for this semester. Now I just have to focus on finding a nursing school and taking GREs and such. And I'll have to stop beating myself over the head for my B in Anatomy and my conceivable C in Chem and my most likely C in Chem Lab. I feel about ten pounds lighter. Although it hasn't really sunk it yet that I'm done. I'm feeling real weird right about now.

Yup. This entry is done.