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Another long day.
Apr. 5th, 2005 12:15 amI got the dreaded thin envelope from SUNY Medical today. Guess that means I actually managed to get all my application stuff in to them on-time; I'd been unsure.
( Me SAD )
It's been a long day. I'm feeling particularly fat, stupid, and slow. Got 4 hours of sleep last night and have been walking around like a zombie. Interviewed for the ComHe internship and got it. There wasn't much competition; they're desperate to start with the field work. The bad news is because I can only work one day out of the week for them I'm only getting a $500 stipend. This is compounded by the fact that, because I'm not making the $1000 I was hoping for, I still have to work taking notes. Meaning that the day I work for them (Tuesday) I'll be out of the house from 6 in the morning (trekking to the Bronx) until 10:30 at night. I don't think I can handle an early wake-up and late return 3 days out of the week, so I'm going to try and see what I can do to get around it. But I need money and my schedule precludes me from most other P/T jobs being offered. Guess I'll see what happens.
Going along with the "I need money" thing, and as mentioned above, since it seems like I won't be attending school next year I need a job. I'm going to make it my business to attack local hospitals on Fridays (my one off day...*sigh*). There's also a CUNY job fair being held at Javitz this Thursday that I want to make my duty to attend. I'll have to spend more of my dwindling funds on a suit for the affair. I hope I'm not too late to register for it. I've been sleeping on the Career Services stuff recently.
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More directly related to my current school - I have an Anatomy exam I'm really going to fail tomorrow. My stress coping mechanism is really grade destructive. I tried to study over the last week but I couldn't focus. The more nervous I became over the impending exam the less I could focus. So the exam's in roughly 16 hours and I know almost nothing. I've given it up for a loss and am going to spend the night studying for exams that I have a better chance of doing well on...like my Micro Practical and Quiz (Wednesday), Ethics exam (also Wednesday), and the dreaded Anatomy Practical (Thursday).
The bit of cheer I got today was in my Ethics class. We got our extra credit short essay assignments returned so that we could do our final revisions on them. Word from the professor was that the class as a whole did sloppy jobs, but he put the comment "Very nice work" (the "very" was the smile-inducer for me; when I feel like shit the little things help) on mine. I still got lots of red-pen marks on my second page, but I think revising it will be easy. Right before that the prof's groupie (the woman returned; boy is she persistent) turned and told me that I did a great job with my comments and involvement in the last class. I got praise in the one class I always feel stupid in, albeit from a stranger. It was something. A little pat on the back.
'Course after that I came home to the thin envelope.
( Me SAD )
It's been a long day. I'm feeling particularly fat, stupid, and slow. Got 4 hours of sleep last night and have been walking around like a zombie. Interviewed for the ComHe internship and got it. There wasn't much competition; they're desperate to start with the field work. The bad news is because I can only work one day out of the week for them I'm only getting a $500 stipend. This is compounded by the fact that, because I'm not making the $1000 I was hoping for, I still have to work taking notes. Meaning that the day I work for them (Tuesday) I'll be out of the house from 6 in the morning (trekking to the Bronx) until 10:30 at night. I don't think I can handle an early wake-up and late return 3 days out of the week, so I'm going to try and see what I can do to get around it. But I need money and my schedule precludes me from most other P/T jobs being offered. Guess I'll see what happens.
Going along with the "I need money" thing, and as mentioned above, since it seems like I won't be attending school next year I need a job. I'm going to make it my business to attack local hospitals on Fridays (my one off day...*sigh*). There's also a CUNY job fair being held at Javitz this Thursday that I want to make my duty to attend. I'll have to spend more of my dwindling funds on a suit for the affair. I hope I'm not too late to register for it. I've been sleeping on the Career Services stuff recently.
*
More directly related to my current school - I have an Anatomy exam I'm really going to fail tomorrow. My stress coping mechanism is really grade destructive. I tried to study over the last week but I couldn't focus. The more nervous I became over the impending exam the less I could focus. So the exam's in roughly 16 hours and I know almost nothing. I've given it up for a loss and am going to spend the night studying for exams that I have a better chance of doing well on...like my Micro Practical and Quiz (Wednesday), Ethics exam (also Wednesday), and the dreaded Anatomy Practical (Thursday).
The bit of cheer I got today was in my Ethics class. We got our extra credit short essay assignments returned so that we could do our final revisions on them. Word from the professor was that the class as a whole did sloppy jobs, but he put the comment "Very nice work" (the "very" was the smile-inducer for me; when I feel like shit the little things help) on mine. I still got lots of red-pen marks on my second page, but I think revising it will be easy. Right before that the prof's groupie (the woman returned; boy is she persistent) turned and told me that I did a great job with my comments and involvement in the last class. I got praise in the one class I always feel stupid in, albeit from a stranger. It was something. A little pat on the back.
'Course after that I came home to the thin envelope.
