Dilemma: I'm supposed to be studying but am finding it impossible to make myself do so. Since waking up I've spent maybe 30 minutes reading my notes, 45 minutes shopping for dinner, 2 hours making dinner, and God only knows how many hours bullshitting in various forms. I'm nervous about failing and that nervousness is going to guarantee I DO fail; how 'bout that shit?
ETA Two hours later - I've done a marginal amount of studying. More web browsing than anything else. And, oh, new Justice League. *sigh* Semi-unrelated note: it's a bit sad to find out that authors you admire have more or less disowned books you enjoyed and still enjoy reading. Poppy Z. Brite's gone on record saying that she's "moved on" from works like
Lost Souls and
Drawing Blood, and that saddens me. I was just re-reading
Drawing Blood today and I found myself bowled over by how *well-written* it is. I mean, yes, there are a couple of plot threads that are pointless (Zach's whole "being chased by the FBI thing" and, come to think of it, everything having to do with Zach including his female hanger-on) but stylistically things flow. I guess I can see
why she'd want to distance herself from those works as it does play out as fanfic with the drama and the cutting and the goth singing and ideation but I still think it has more to do with her being embarrassed with the writing, sort of the way I'm embarrassed to go back and read the story fragments I produced back in junior high and high school. I don't know; I get the feeling like she's inadvertently shitting on the people that do read those books and like them. Or perhaps I'm being too sensitive. ::shrug::
ETA Twelve hours later *grin*: I get it now. Of course she's moved on. She's not in the same place emotionally and mentally she was when she could write the characters that populate those books. It's for her benefit too. Everyone was a little too beautiful and too perfectly broken (so all it takes is love to make things better)...most definitely the work of a young person. Ah well. Some of the characters are quite interesting despite all that. I was sort of hoping she'd revisit them. Maybe she will when she's much much older and can look back fondly on her body of work, the way Tanith Lee made a sequel to
Silver Metal Lover a couple of years back (the sequel? not as interesting as the original, like those things tend to be).
Let me just post about my clinical day from hell. Then I won't have an excuse to keep pulling up the bloody "Update Journal" screen.
( This is tough to type up and it may be tough to read. Mention of bodily fluids and of me making an ass out of myself. Or perhaps just being human. )Wow. This window has been open for three. hours. I think that's a personal record.