Why aren't I sleeping?
Nov. 14th, 2007 03:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fredericksI'm feeling the funk. Everything's just a little more trying nowadays. I can't get past the feeling that I'm behind: I still haven't asked my profs for recommendations, I haven't really buckled down for the GREs (I got an okay score last time which I'd forgotten about, and now I'm wondering why the hell I bothered to give Kaplan my money in the first place), thinking about work leaves me a little queasy, and my bank account is only now beginning to make its way back to respectable number...with the money-sapping cruise just around the corner. The room is at a standstill. A nice-looking standstill, though. I wish I'd taken off the week before the 8th instead of the week after. Gah ::headdesk::
On the positive front - nothing makes one realize how much one knows like working with neophytes. We have a crapload of new hires on the floor, and the last night I was on the floor I was the second most senior nurse (!) working. Boggles the mind. They'd ask questions and look to me for advice and I actually knew what the hell I was doing. I know! Startling. I have eleven more shifts until vacation, including the ones today and tomorrow. Hopefully things will continue to be relatively uneventful and my nerves will settle down.
See? Everything is either work or...work. And I babbled about my job a lot anyway, mainly because I see it as a *career*, but it's coming to the point where I have no life outside of it.
Enough of that. Here's a meme I found in![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
modpixie's journal that I filled out because, hey, it's 4:27 and my ass is still awake.
1. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
No one. It's so much better to let them live and make them suffer.
2. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Who will it be?
Coldplay. God, they just get on my nerves.
3. Who would you really like to punch in the face?
A couple of my coworkers really have it coming. Visualizing giving them a fist sandwich is sometimes the only thing that allows me to make it through the morning.
4. What is your favorite cheese?
Feta. I don't have salad with feta sprinkled on top, but feta with a couple of leaves of lettuce.
5. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your immediate disposal. What kind of sandwich will you eat?
A reuben. Which would suck because it would quickly go from being my favorite to something that makes me upchuck.
6. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?
Gah. Okay, James Spader circa "Crash".
7. You have the opportunity to sleep with the music celebrity of your choice, who will it be?
Great; now I'm a groupie. It's a toss up between Robert Plant circa Led Zeppelin III and Josh Homme. Which is funny because I wouldn't usually describe either of them as my "type" (if I have a type).
8. Now that you've slept with two people in a row, you seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. What do you buy?
What, you mean, beside some dignity? I don't know. Maybe dinner. Sex makes me crave a nice medium-rare steak.
9. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
One of the Hawaiian islands. I'd crank the Iz on the way over. It'd be awesome.
10. An angel appears out of heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the beverage of your choice. It is?
Sweet tea. Halleluia and amen.
11. Rufus [Wainwright? God, that man is *everywhere* nowadays] appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anywhere in the PAST. Where do you go?
Surprisingly enough, the past was sort of fucked for my people in the US and most of Western Europe up to a couple of years ago (let's not get on about how it is for us *now*, of course). In an ideal historical world I'd like to check out Venice around the mid 1650's. Otherwise...::shrug::
12. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
Humming Coldplay and/or walking down the beach *singing* Coldplay while it's overcast will get you tossed to the sharks.
13. You have been given the opportunity to create the half-hour TV show of your own design. What is it?
Sorta like Trauma: Life in the ER, but focusing on the work of the nurses. And looking at what goes on in different hospital floors. We're first responders, peeps. Be kind to your nurse.
14. What is your favorite curse word?
I have a slight overbite, so I find the pressure I exert upon my bottom lip when I begin to say "fuck" to be extremely delightful. So, yeah. Fuck. Fuck it is.
15. One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, what do you do?
Hustle them the fuck out of my room and go back to sleep. What else does one do in such a situation?
Oh, and maybe snap a pic or two to post.
16. Your house is on fire! What do you do?
Uhm, get out? and call for help? Seriously, this doesn't require any deep thought.
17. The Angel of Death has descended upon you. Fortunately, the Angel of Death is pretty cool and in a good mood, and it offers you a half-hour to do whatever you want before you die.
Curse out the AoD for *giving* me warning. Come on!, that's being such a Death Tease it isn't funny. Maybe muster enough courage to tell certain people I love them.
18. You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What super-power is it?
The ability to not work and yet have enough money to be independently wealthy. Or, you know, superspeed.
19. You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
*sigh* I would go back to the last time I spoke to D. and not be such an utter bitch. The one thing worse than losing a sig. other is losing your best friend.
20. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
All the horrible experiences have helped me for the better, as far as I can tell. It's some of the good things that have ended up screwing me over down the road. This one's too hard to contemplate at 4 in the morning.
21. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. [Bwah!] But check this out: you can move anywhere. Where are you going?
Italy. I likeded it over there. Probably Milan.
22. This question still counts, even for those of you who are under age, if you were banned from every bar in the world except one, which one would it be?
Don't know. I don't really do bars.
23. Hopefully you didn't mention this in the super-powers question... If you did, then we'll just expound on that. Check it out… Suddenly, you have gained the ability to fly! Whose house are you going to fly to first, and be like "Check it out! I can FLY!?"
Probably Jo's. We'd geek out for a bit, then she'd tell me to get the hell down.
24. The constant absorption of magical moon beams mixed with the radioactive vegetables you consumed earlier has given you the ability to resurrect the dead famous person of your choice. So which celebrity will you bring back to life?
The dead should stay dead. I've seen enough X-Files, Buffy, and Supernatural to know THAT much, at least. If I had the power to resurrect careers, though, I'd love to add more Paul Gross to our collective lives. Even though he still has it going on Up North.
On the positive front - nothing makes one realize how much one knows like working with neophytes. We have a crapload of new hires on the floor, and the last night I was on the floor I was the second most senior nurse (!) working. Boggles the mind. They'd ask questions and look to me for advice and I actually knew what the hell I was doing. I know! Startling. I have eleven more shifts until vacation, including the ones today and tomorrow. Hopefully things will continue to be relatively uneventful and my nerves will settle down.
See? Everything is either work or...work. And I babbled about my job a lot anyway, mainly because I see it as a *career*, but it's coming to the point where I have no life outside of it.
Enough of that. Here's a meme I found in
modpixie's journal that I filled out because, hey, it's 4:27 and my ass is still awake. 1. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
No one. It's so much better to let them live and make them suffer.
2. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Who will it be?
Coldplay. God, they just get on my nerves.
3. Who would you really like to punch in the face?
A couple of my coworkers really have it coming. Visualizing giving them a fist sandwich is sometimes the only thing that allows me to make it through the morning.
4. What is your favorite cheese?
Feta. I don't have salad with feta sprinkled on top, but feta with a couple of leaves of lettuce.
5. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your immediate disposal. What kind of sandwich will you eat?
A reuben. Which would suck because it would quickly go from being my favorite to something that makes me upchuck.
6. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?
Gah. Okay, James Spader circa "Crash".
7. You have the opportunity to sleep with the music celebrity of your choice, who will it be?
Great; now I'm a groupie. It's a toss up between Robert Plant circa Led Zeppelin III and Josh Homme. Which is funny because I wouldn't usually describe either of them as my "type" (if I have a type).
8. Now that you've slept with two people in a row, you seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. What do you buy?
What, you mean, beside some dignity? I don't know. Maybe dinner. Sex makes me crave a nice medium-rare steak.
9. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
One of the Hawaiian islands. I'd crank the Iz on the way over. It'd be awesome.
10. An angel appears out of heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the beverage of your choice. It is?
Sweet tea. Halleluia and amen.
11. Rufus [Wainwright? God, that man is *everywhere* nowadays] appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anywhere in the PAST. Where do you go?
Surprisingly enough, the past was sort of fucked for my people in the US and most of Western Europe up to a couple of years ago (let's not get on about how it is for us *now*, of course). In an ideal historical world I'd like to check out Venice around the mid 1650's. Otherwise...::shrug::
12. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
Humming Coldplay and/or walking down the beach *singing* Coldplay while it's overcast will get you tossed to the sharks.
13. You have been given the opportunity to create the half-hour TV show of your own design. What is it?
Sorta like Trauma: Life in the ER, but focusing on the work of the nurses. And looking at what goes on in different hospital floors. We're first responders, peeps. Be kind to your nurse.
14. What is your favorite curse word?
I have a slight overbite, so I find the pressure I exert upon my bottom lip when I begin to say "fuck" to be extremely delightful. So, yeah. Fuck. Fuck it is.
15. One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, what do you do?
Hustle them the fuck out of my room and go back to sleep. What else does one do in such a situation?
Oh, and maybe snap a pic or two to post.
16. Your house is on fire! What do you do?
Uhm, get out? and call for help? Seriously, this doesn't require any deep thought.
17. The Angel of Death has descended upon you. Fortunately, the Angel of Death is pretty cool and in a good mood, and it offers you a half-hour to do whatever you want before you die.
Curse out the AoD for *giving* me warning. Come on!, that's being such a Death Tease it isn't funny. Maybe muster enough courage to tell certain people I love them.
18. You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What super-power is it?
The ability to not work and yet have enough money to be independently wealthy. Or, you know, superspeed.
19. You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
*sigh* I would go back to the last time I spoke to D. and not be such an utter bitch. The one thing worse than losing a sig. other is losing your best friend.
20. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
All the horrible experiences have helped me for the better, as far as I can tell. It's some of the good things that have ended up screwing me over down the road. This one's too hard to contemplate at 4 in the morning.
21. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. [Bwah!] But check this out: you can move anywhere. Where are you going?
Italy. I likeded it over there. Probably Milan.
22. This question still counts, even for those of you who are under age, if you were banned from every bar in the world except one, which one would it be?
Don't know. I don't really do bars.
23. Hopefully you didn't mention this in the super-powers question... If you did, then we'll just expound on that. Check it out… Suddenly, you have gained the ability to fly! Whose house are you going to fly to first, and be like "Check it out! I can FLY!?"
Probably Jo's. We'd geek out for a bit, then she'd tell me to get the hell down.
24. The constant absorption of magical moon beams mixed with the radioactive vegetables you consumed earlier has given you the ability to resurrect the dead famous person of your choice. So which celebrity will you bring back to life?
The dead should stay dead. I've seen enough X-Files, Buffy, and Supernatural to know THAT much, at least. If I had the power to resurrect careers, though, I'd love to add more Paul Gross to our collective lives. Even though he still has it going on Up North.
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Date: 2007-11-14 03:10 pm (UTC)I feel your pain
My husband is out of town and I haven't had more than 6 hours of sleep since Sunday. (I don't sleep well without him). My bedtimes so far have been 5AM, 4AM, 3AM progressively. Maybe by the time he gets back I'll get to bed at a decent hour...if I don't pass out from exhaustion driving to work first!
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Date: 2007-11-15 02:25 pm (UTC)We'll be sleepy zombies together. :)
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Date: 2007-11-14 04:54 pm (UTC)im sure you will be fine with them though...you're obviously really smart :) i think i waited too long after graduating to start thinking about grad school...
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Date: 2007-11-15 02:27 pm (UTC)And thanks for the vote of confidence. :)
You're never too old for grad school. I think the hardest thing at a certain point is finding relevant references.
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Date: 2007-11-14 05:21 pm (UTC)I would immediately move to your country. That is the best law ever. Seriously.
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Date: 2007-11-15 02:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-11-14 05:21 pm (UTC)And holy hell has it been a long time since I had a decent reuben. Just reading the word gave me this totally Pavlovian reaction, but sadly there are no real delis where I live now. Wah!
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Date: 2007-11-15 02:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-11-15 03:50 am (UTC)A couple of my coworkers really have it coming. Visualizing giving them a fist sandwich is sometimes the only thing that allows me to make it through the morning.
Are you stealing my thoughts? Because seriously, I had that exact thought this morning about one of my coworkers. Just imagining me punching her (or slapping her, or rolling her chair out into the hallway and locking the door behind her) is enough to buy me a couple more moments of sanity.
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Date: 2007-11-15 02:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-11-15 03:56 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-11-15 02:31 pm (UTC)...you guys have radios in NM?
Right. Sorry.
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Date: 2007-11-17 04:43 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-11-18 11:46 am (UTC)