Krishna and me (redux)
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fredericksWe were supposed to take Krishna to the vet this afternoon to take her to the vet to put her to sleep (such a lovely euphemism). I backed out. She has an incurable cancer, with a massive lump on the side of her head that makes it nearly impossible for her to open her jaw and is slowly causing her left eye to bulge out. I wouldn't be surprised if she's blind on that side by now. BUT when is it time to say "it's time"?
I'd called to make the appointment on Tuesday, because the day before she'd done nothing. She didn't want to move and she barely tried to eat her food. However, by the next day she was up and about. Now she more or less eats but she spends most of her time plopped in the back, sleeping or laying down. It's an incredibly difficult call for me - on one hand I want her around as long as possible and on the other I don't want her to suffer.
I was deliberating about what to do this morning. I asked my mom for her input and she was less than helpful. I spoke with my aunt as well, and she did a great job of making me feel like a shit for saying that I don't think I can take having Krishna in pain. She claims she would keep her dogs alive until they couldn't move anymore, one of the cruelest thing I think you can do. Eh.
The plan at the moment is to take Krishna to church on Sunday, since it's the Feast of St. Francis of Assisi. For my peace of mind I want to take her to service. And it'd be cool to take the creature I love to a place I've grown to enjoy (because I can, here I'm going to link to the church's website and here I'm going to link to last Sunday's sermon which I thought was amazingly awesome but it really helps when you have Rev. Tully reading it in his totally natural way). And then, afterwards...maybe we'll put her to sleep, maybe we'll bring her home. I just don't know.
I'd called to make the appointment on Tuesday, because the day before she'd done nothing. She didn't want to move and she barely tried to eat her food. However, by the next day she was up and about. Now she more or less eats but she spends most of her time plopped in the back, sleeping or laying down. It's an incredibly difficult call for me - on one hand I want her around as long as possible and on the other I don't want her to suffer.
I was deliberating about what to do this morning. I asked my mom for her input and she was less than helpful. I spoke with my aunt as well, and she did a great job of making me feel like a shit for saying that I don't think I can take having Krishna in pain. She claims she would keep her dogs alive until they couldn't move anymore, one of the cruelest thing I think you can do. Eh.
The plan at the moment is to take Krishna to church on Sunday, since it's the Feast of St. Francis of Assisi. For my peace of mind I want to take her to service. And it'd be cool to take the creature I love to a place I've grown to enjoy (because I can, here I'm going to link to the church's website and here I'm going to link to last Sunday's sermon which I thought was amazingly awesome but it really helps when you have Rev. Tully reading it in his totally natural way). And then, afterwards...maybe we'll put her to sleep, maybe we'll bring her home. I just don't know.
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Date: 2005-09-30 08:48 pm (UTC)I just can't imagine having to do that, it must be tearing you up inside. Our pets are deeply imbedded into our lives...aren't they? Even though it's in the best interest of Krishna...... I still got choked up just reading about it, I'm so sorry.
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Date: 2005-10-01 01:53 am (UTC)They find a way to worm into your heart, yes. Thanks for the sympathy, D.