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Day was going moderately okay until this evening, when seeing certain faces at a church meeting got the pity/rejection train rolling (I keep thinking of Blankets, where Thompson notes how painful it is to get rejected by people who are supposed to be accepting) and then I come home to a Krishna with one eye sunken in and the other one so distended I'm wondering whether it's going to pop out of her head. She barely ate today. My brother and I can't take her to the vet until Friday. And just like that the feelings of loneliness flare up. Jesus.