One nightmare...postponed

Went to bed last night around 11, utterly exhausted from a bevy of tests and running back and forth due to numerous things. I started having waking dreams about finding out that Bush had won the presidency (one notable one - I ask my mom who won. She tells me Bush and I get all sad. Then she says, no, Kerry, and I start clapping my hands and cheering like a toddler. THEN she tells me, no, it's Bush. And she laughs.). I was too scared tired to turn on television to find out what the news were saying (too tired, I guess - I would have had to get up and pull off the t-shirt I used to over the bright clock of the cable box in order to put the TV on). When I finally roused myself fully (after looking at the clock and resigning myself to the fact that I was going to wake up at 7:30 on a late day) and flicked on the TV, no one candidate's name stood out although, ominously, a number of outlets were talking about how people "voted 9/11" (and who the hell came up with the term "9/11 Moms"? seriously, now). I go downstairs and ask the two brothers who's the president. Waste of breath and energy; they're too busy watching Sportscenter. Delaying the inevitable I gargle, get my clothes together for school, and d/l Ad-Aware to aid our newly fast but undoubtebly porn-ladden computer before clicking over to CNN.com where I see this thing,

which *does* successfully frighten me, but the headline is that no one has all the necessary electoral votes. For those I heard talking in Hunter's halls that wished for a vote based on popular vote: sorry, but Bush has about 4 million more than Kerry. And I just...huh? Are people so concerned about possible terroristic acts (which, doubtless, wouldn't be occurring if the whole fuckin' world policing policy hadn't taken root in the first fuckin' place) that they're willing to give up rights over their bodies and their money and their jobs? People are willing to hand over all these things because they want their government, a government that caters to the will of Arms Business, and Tobacco Business, and Environmental Destruction Business (basically every *damn* factorial business out there), to protect the MORALITY of the country? The hell??? YOU dictate your own morality. YOU dictate the morals for your family, and your children. Worry less about gay marriage and worry more about the people in straight marriages having affairs, or getting divorces and re-marrying left and right. You think a bared nipple is going to send your child on the road straight to hell?

Okay. I'm backing away from all that. It just always shocks me how much of the country is staunchly Republican. I mean, I hear stories, but I live in New York. My parents were immigrants, knowing nothing about America except that Democrats were "for black people". So, since they got their citizenship, they've voted Democrat. I don't necessarily agree with their assessment, but, looking at the atmosphere Republicans breed, a foreigner can see they're less than welcoming. I voted Democrat because, let's face it, Nader wasn't going to win. They were (and are) the next best chance. It'll take something drastic in our future to make anything but the two-party view appealing to the vast majority of Americans. But I know that what one says when one wants to get to the glittering White House is not what one'll do. There's such oligarchic control of our government it's ridiculous. Maybe that's my version of paranoia, crying "Watch out for Big Business", but I can't help thinking it's true. I want to see what someone new might do. Bush has already shown me what he can do, and I'm not liking it.

Come on, Ohio. Send a miracle our way.