When stuff just doesn't suck so bad
Mar. 12th, 2004 09:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fredericksHeh. It took the passing of my uncle for me to realize that I do entirely too much griping and moping. Seeing him on that hospital bed, just staring into space while his sister gently wiped his mouth...remembering that just two months ago he'd been thin, yes, but talkative and still smiling occasionally...remembering back even further, to our trip to Seattle and to him coming all the way out to Rhode Island for my graduation. Life is too precious and short to be spent bitching and complaining about what hasn't gone right. I'm certainly not going to go on the record as saying I'm going to be super-positive all the time, because that's not me. But I'm not going to spend quite as much mental energy degrading myself. So I'm working at Radioshack - at least I have a job. I can always find another one. So I'm not in graduate school at the moment - I still have the opportunity to enroll and I'll always have the brains (I'm testing fate with that one, but eh). So my folks bug the shit out of me sometimes. Uhm, yeah. The gist has been gotten, hopefully.
Day spent at LeShack again. My coworkers really are young, for lack of a better term. Or maybe it's just their way of coping that has me ruefully shaking my head. If you don't get along with the manager, take positive steps towards telling her as such and why. Cursing her out when she leaves and plotting to go to another store accomplishes nothing for the situation you're in now. I find that I'm somewhat proud of the fact that I've been made a keyholder at the store; basically that means I have added responsibilities in the store without any extra pay. Mom was right, although when she said it she was starting one of her usual tirades against me: I really can't half-ass what I undertake. That's a good trait and a bad trait for me. I'm more likely to undertake tasks that I'm sure I can do well in (like menial work at a place like RS) instead of pushing myself to the limit in a place like, say, grad school or med. school. I'm terribly afraid of failure, and that often holds me back. But it's so darn hard to let go. Hopefully I can do what needs to be done in the future. I'm alive and I'm well, and, honestly, that's all that really matters. Nope, stuff doesn't suck so bad right now.
Day spent at LeShack again. My coworkers really are young, for lack of a better term. Or maybe it's just their way of coping that has me ruefully shaking my head. If you don't get along with the manager, take positive steps towards telling her as such and why. Cursing her out when she leaves and plotting to go to another store accomplishes nothing for the situation you're in now. I find that I'm somewhat proud of the fact that I've been made a keyholder at the store; basically that means I have added responsibilities in the store without any extra pay. Mom was right, although when she said it she was starting one of her usual tirades against me: I really can't half-ass what I undertake. That's a good trait and a bad trait for me. I'm more likely to undertake tasks that I'm sure I can do well in (like menial work at a place like RS) instead of pushing myself to the limit in a place like, say, grad school or med. school. I'm terribly afraid of failure, and that often holds me back. But it's so darn hard to let go. Hopefully I can do what needs to be done in the future. I'm alive and I'm well, and, honestly, that's all that really matters. Nope, stuff doesn't suck so bad right now.
