Sucker

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So I did it. I went to CherryAnne's office bright and early this morning and told her I was going to quit. I wrestled with the decision for a damned long time. I mean, I QUIT. I haven't quit on a job like that EVER (I didn't quit Radioshack; I left for sanity's sake). And I don't think I had reason to, really. It was just this feeling of "I don't want to do it" without knowing why. I was figuring it out in my head as I was on my way out here "Well, you work only 9.5 hours a week and earn a little pocket change...that's something". Trying to get myself to see that the hours were really great. Workable. Even if I'd find the work itself tedious. Hells, I didn't even know I was going to go to CherryAnne's office when I walked into Hunter. I went to the Math Department first to attempt to find out if you could over-enroll into a Statistics course that said it was "computer-based" on the syllabus (the jury is still out on that one).

Her office happened to be in the same building, so I found myself going up there, not knowing what I was going to say. I just walked in, fiddled with my earphones, then mumbled "I just wanted to give you notice".

She looked at me and said "Well, notice of what?"

Then I felt there was no turning back. "Notice that I'm leaving the job". Of course, I copped out and said I could stay on until the end of the week. Sure. No problem. Ack.

Now I'm back looking for employment, hoping the bookstore gig lasts longer than the 17th of September.

Such a sucker. Such a loser.