Breaking the habit

[fredericks]

I have a deep aversion to writing in my textbooks in any sort of permanent ink. I realize this now, as I contemplate marking in the answers on my Lab Review Sheets. Just the thought of putting black ballpoint to clean glossy white sheet gives me an almost Pavlovian shock. My trainers? my West-Indian parents, for whom books were as rare and expensive as gold. Or so they make it seem. I also hear a lot of "We had bread and butter for lunch! One slice!" and "You kids are damned lucky! We almost never had meat to eat!" (and I should point out that 7 of the 10 dishes we had yesterday for my bro's birthday were meat-based...making up for lost time, perhaps).

I digress. As is my wont. I've been trained, from an early age, to only work math problems in pencil, and to *never* write in a textbook, always paper accompanying it. Even if said textbook wasn't given to me by my school and didn't have to be returned.

Pencil and paper. Always. Well, I'm going to try to go against it all.

I...I feel so anxious.


God, I'm such a loser.

Comments

[gorzo.livejournal.com]

I am pretty sure that a hesitation to write in a perfectly good book does not make you a loser. I was raised by a librarian and have the same behavior ingrained.

No, see, if anything makes you a loser, it would be the simple and easily correctible fact that-oops, pizza's here. Seeya!

[candicelbj.livejournal.com]

lol @ you.

You didn't die from it. All's well.

[candicelbj.livejournal.com]

oh, did you ask that guy if he picked up your mini-disc player?

[fredericks.livejournal.com]

*grin* I chickened out. I used pencil. I can't break the habit!!!

And this girl from my class ended up taking my MD home. She called me late Friday night, and I was like "Huh? How'd you get my-oh!" I was supposed to tutor her one time but it fell through, but she still ended up having my number. I got it back from her today. VERY happy about how everything turned out, on the whole. That'll teach me to try to function on 2 hours of sleep.